Or it is kidney stones…
In my case, last week, definitely kidney stones.
I learned one thing: When something does not belong, it is painfully obvious. (emphasis on the word “painfully”)
A small piece of calcium in the body DOES NOT belong. The body will do all kinds of things to remind you of that.
I do not belong in this world.
Makes me wonder what I have to do to fit in so well.
A kidney stone will never be popular and well liked in the world.
So this is my plea for the week: I want to be well liked here, I want people to see the love of a great God in my eyes, I want people to respond to the kindness of Jesus in me.
But I DO NOT want to be mistaken for someone who has the characteristics of this world. Do I have to choose? I think we all do.
I have been fasting on Wednesdays for about 8 months now.
I stink at fasting!
1. I get irritated with everything. I get easily agitated with silly things that my cute kids do – I have even lost my temper with them. I thought this was a temporary thing that would go away with the advent of my INCREDIBLE spiritual growth. Nope.
2. I am tempted by garbage. Put a piece of amazing, juicy steak in front of me and I will laugh it off like it is an avocado sandwich. But can i resist a bag of Doritos within 20 miles? Nope.
I had to ask: Why am I fasting if this is the return I get? My daughter has the answer. Daddy, you fast because you want to give up something that you like so you can get more of God (the One who loves).
What have I learned about God in this season?
God loves me, though I fail.
In fact, I don’t even fail as much as crash! I don’t fall into lawlessness, I dive right in! I become a stubborn 2 year old in the face of not getting my way. I HATE THIS!
GOD LOVES ME!
I would much rather present a righteous man before God. Someone that God could look at and say, “Oh, my awesome servant, I would be honored to be your God.”
But that would only prove how good I am.
Instead, my constant failure proves how much God loves.
Maybe you would think about your life. Does it prove how good you are or how great He is?
Only one will last – be a fast failure with me.