Fast failure

I have been fasting on Wednesdays for about 8 months now.

I stink at fasting!

1. I get irritated with everything. I get easily agitated with silly things that my cute kids do – I have even lost my temper with them. I thought this was a temporary thing that would go away with the advent of my INCREDIBLE spiritual growth. Nope.
2. I am tempted by garbage. Put a piece of amazing, juicy steak in front of me and I will laugh it off like it is an avocado sandwich. But can i resist a bag of Doritos within 20 miles? Nope.

I had to ask: Why am I fasting if this is the return I get? My daughter has the answer. Daddy, you fast because you want to give up something that you like so you can get more of God (the One who loves).

What have I learned about God in this season?

God loves me, though I fail.
In fact, I don’t even fail as much as crash! I don’t fall into lawlessness, I dive right in! I become a stubborn 2 year old in the face of not getting my way. I HATE THIS!

I would much rather present a righteous man before God. Someone that God could look at and say, “Oh, my awesome servant, I would be honored to be your God.”

But that would only prove how good I am.

Instead, my constant failure proves how much God loves.

Maybe you would think about your life. Does it prove how good you are or how great He is?

Only one will last – be a fast failure with me.

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